Where have all the good times gone...?

I was just reading my friend John's xanga. I can't take it. Everything is working out so perfect for him. Our lives were identical this time last year, now he's different, better. What happened to all the little things? The interval that used to be so apparent. The "fire ants". Everything is changed now. My life is just all messed up, while his is perfect, or near to it. I can't explain how I feel. It's been so hard not to resent him for it. I liked him better when he was going to New Hope, even though there was a girl there he didn't need to be around. AHHHH! Why? Why can't we go on to do everything together, side by side? Now he's going to go be a preacher boy and I'm going to be, well I don't know, probably some bum or something. Grrrrr. I feel I'm going to explode with emotion. And I'm sure his all sounds very weird, but it's true. He has a whole boat load of friends who are there for him, encouraging him in the Lord. I don't. Woodside is dead compared to John. I've said all this but I do hope, although it's hard, that God will continue to bless in his life. But please pray for me!